Just when I thought life was coming back together and returning normal, things change. Today, while getting ready for work, I checked my phone and I wish I hadn’t. I saw an unopened text message from my sister. It read: Did Melissa (last name left out) pass away..??!! My heart dropped. I prayed it was a practical joke or that she moved away. I knew my sister my know more when I saw her at work. She did. Apparently our friend was simply walking in a part of our hometown we used to visit and was struck by a car. She passed away late that same day.
I still cannot wrap my head around this. She was like a sister to me. Someone I felt comfortable to tell anything to without feeling judged. She was a wonderful friend and talented person. She could have achieved so much more, but her life was cut too short.
Unfortunately, we hadn’t talked in a while. I was mad at something she did do. I shouldn’t have been angry at something so little. We should’ve been caught up with one another. She never even knew I had cancer. I just don’t believe that I’m still here and she’s not. It should’ve honestly been the other way around.
I wish I would’ve mended our friendship. I was always secretly hoping to run into her downtown (the incident where it happened). Now I am heartbroken. I will never see her happy face and I will never get the chance to regain the friendship. I just lost her. Being mad at someone is only going to hurt you in the end. Learn it from me, forgive, especially those who mean something to you. You won’t realize what you had until it’s gone. And you will never get the chance to fix what shouldn’t have been broken.
I’ll always remember all the wonderful memories we shared and look back at the photos. I’ll never forget her. Her memory will forever live in my heart.
I know she’s watching over me. I just wish she was down here with me.
It goes to show you that life can turn and change in a blink of an eye. I wish I never blinked that second it happened.
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